ghost castle


it's like i improve in one area

and fall apart in another;

like i'm being pushed

in two directions

all the time

resulting in a spiral,

a constant give-and-take,

a grow-and-kill,

pulling me closer to myself,

and away from myself too;

an obfuscation as the picture grows clearer.

i close my eyes, i hold them tight,

and i see the spiral.