the last time i was on antidepressants there was this long period where i didn't really feel anything. after a while i started to feel little glimmers of things again, and after some time i felt like i was learning my emotions again.
at the time i visualized it like a garden. it had been overgrown with weeds and shit and so i had to dig them up. now i'm left with an empty field. so i planted some seeds and then they grew into flowers or vegetables or whatever.
i guess that's how it's going. i'm an empty field.