it's so odd, when people told me i'd make it through this, i knew i wouldn't. but when someone tells me that i'll never change, i know i will. this whole time i was looking for support when all i really needed was an enemy.
no, i'm just kidding. it isn't healthy to hold people as "enemies" in your mind. but it is invigorating knowing someone is watching, expecting you to fall. thank you so much for telling me. i can use the motivation.