ghost castle

disbelief

i can't believe it.

i seriously can't believe it.

i dropped my avoidance tactics. i confronted it. i was open about it. i'm thinking about it and i'm okay. i got teary eyed, but only for a moment. i used to straight up cry at the thought, i'd want to fold into nothing at the mere mention of it. now i feel. . . okay.

i feel fine. the thought is there. the longing for something different is still there. but. . . i feel fine. not warm, but not cold like usual. i'm withstanding. i'm maintaining.

i'm growing.

i can't believe it.

i seriously can't believe it.


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